hiatus/

yeeeha. no need for physics n00bs to feel jealous that we have an extra day of cts. cos cts are over. of course, not everybody is that happy.

sherlock: Aiyah, with no more cts there's no point in anything.
me: then what? you want cts everyday issit?
sherlock: yea. but without the marks.

ashvin was pretty sick and i embarked on my mega trans-island game hunt in order to find a single original copy of half life 2. i was met with nothing but failure. even at sim lim square, the mecca of all things computer. shite. even popular that usually sells old games didnt have it. damn. maybe its 1.5 years old but its one of the best fps ever in my opinion. loll. now i have only 2 options left. hopefully benlim can order online for me or i can buy ongneh's copy if he willing to sell. saw angie at orchard. never talk much to her so dono whether to wave at her. and when she suddenly smile, i dono whether it was at me. so i did the safest thing. i just smiled back and walked on. haha. and those buggers in sim lim can sell half life (1) but not half life 2. buggers. the whole lot of them. in immense sadness, i visited an "software" shop and bought a copy of FEAR to drown my miseries.

needless to say, after 5 hours of it, i'm pretty much fearful myself. ooh. all that blood and gore only makes it worse. bleah. especially the hallucination scenes when you see something really spooky. the guys at monolith really know how to make a scary fps. haha. i'm not a wuss can. this can can really make your heart stop. and yes, its a year old. i'm lagging again. but shite. another game i should've played way earlier.

loll. pw meeting after bio didnt happen. so the slacking continues. haha. not my fault again. and i'm really in the mood for superman. was supposed to watch it with the blaekes but i embarked on my dismal quest. sumore saw superman cartoon on tv. loll. or maybe krish. haha. more worth it wad. 3 hour hindi super hero movie. haha. loll. the hiatus is over. wheeeeeeee.

trans-

who am i kidding? crap, i wish my cts ended today. think of all the cool stuff i could be doing now. ahh. never mind. its only 12 hours away. better get back to my bio soon. loll. red skies again. maybe its a good sign. cos i did exceedingly well in math today. i did miss out one question cos i dunno how to do, but i'm quite confident of a good grade. hee.

utopia*

four days ago, a spider crawled onto my table and started hopping around my notes and stuff. i caught it in an old floppy disk case and wanted to release it somewhere. i dont know. instead, i just kept it on my table. i was pretty big. around 2cm. loll. yea. two days went by and it was still alive. but i knew it needed nourishment. a moth flew in. good timing. and i was duely rewarded with some impressive predator skills. loll. and now, its still there. in its tiny little world with a regular supply of insects. its only a spider but at least it keeps me company while i'm studying.

math tomorrow. its supposed to be my better subject. hopefully all goes well. the physics noobs finish cts tomorrow. but bio rocks anyway. so its worth it. haha.

red sky

phew. at least its good to know that i'm always being watched over. thank god. if not for Him, i'd be real dead meat now. fell asleep on the bus to school and went all the way to HCJC. i was like omg. how did i wake up? the HC guy sitting next to me and mugging gp dropped something on my foot. that was at 7:40am. quickly got out and took a cab back to school and reached just on time. bloody lucky. and bloody thankful. i wasnt pissed off at wasting money, but i was more pissed off at being careless.

moral of the story? dont pump yourself up so much the night before an exam and get sleepy and never sleep on the bus in the morning especially when your trip is very short.

at least the incident somehow inspired me for chem. was totally relaxed. maybe abit too relaxed. couldnt really finish everything. but what i left out wasnt alot. at least i'm quite confident. all goes well, i just might end up with an A. heh. hopefully.

the sky was red today. maybe its abad omen. haha. who knows? pity i couldnt get a picture. better get back to my bio. good luck all you physics ppl! your cts may end early, but bio still rocks! hah. and thanks ashvin for the cool mini cannon and the postcard and the fake german documents. haha. really awesome.

lonestar.

omg. utterly hysterical. i was trembling in lt 3 fifteen minutes before the paper, not knowing whether it was the cold aircon or fear, while my mates were all contemplating thier deaths. i walked in seeing a familiar face and rewarded the person with an almost maniacal grin. seriously, everyone thought i was going crazy. during the paper, i was in a state of harmony with myself. zen. complete focus.

after the paper. back to my hysterical self. at the rate the common tests are going, i wont need to worry at all. come on come on. 3 more papers, 4 more days.

and i can see only one star from my window. reminds me of something too.

starry nights.

after another strange and intriguing night, i have come to the conclusion that i have an exceedingly wild imagination. up to the extent that it may not be too good for my own sanity. and now, my head is throbbing and its bloody painful and irritating. plus, i couldnt sleep much because that, resulting in a very sleepy me. worse still, i was watching the germany match. damn worth it. anywaes, i even feel asleep on the table while writing something. loll.

read some horoscope, (2 versions actually) for fun today after i was prompted by a friend. surprisingly, both were rather accurate. one was about my social ife and the other was about my work. haha. cant believe that tomorrow is the first day of semester two. 1 month went by so quickly. i'd love to see all my friends but well, there's common tests to go through. good luck everyone!

my head still hurts btw. wonder how i'm going to survive for the rest of the day. oh yea, i know how. according to indra, (who i think burnt himself out studying chem yesterday nite cos he's not respoinding to my sms) with style.

but hey!

whoa. after using the high resolution lcd monitor for six months, using an ordinary crt with low resolution is quite dizzying. especially since everything looks so big.
anyways, after an inspiring and enlightening day yesterday, i'm back on track today by finally finishing integration and the entire syllabus for cts. all that needs to be done is some extra reading through and practise.

was doing integration this morining, when suddenly, a realisation came to my mind. in the warhammer 40000 universe, mankind is rules by the Emperor, who possesses enormous power. after a duel with one of his former allies, the Emperor was forced to be entombed in a life support machine where he still enforces his rule. he is the saviour of mankind and he has led the entire race from darkness into the light. the Ecclesiarchy, a group of priests and religious leaders with alot of authority, deem the Emperor to be a divine entity. ordinary humans worship the emperor like a god.
however, a race of genetically modified superhuman soldiers known as space marines, believe otherwise. they believe that the Emperor has immmense abilities and skills but is essentially a man with extraordinay powers. because of this, the Ecclesiarchy and the space marines often have conflicting viewpoints on the Emperor and both sides, while necessary to mankind, are not at all in good terms with each other.

this sure does remind me of another ideological difference that is clearly visible today. (hint; its nothing to do with Dan Brown) loll. ohwell, there's more to such things than meets the eye. all we have to do, is just look hard enough. happy mugging everyone! its only a few more days. (:

wake up.

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okae. now that i have woken up. i think hanlong is an awesome ogl. and he still is. thanks dude. really owe you alot. i shall buy you a really nice present for your bdae or smthing. hah.

imagine.

well. yet another lonely day. i might have been with people physically. but mentally, spiritually or whatever, i wasnt anywhere close. seriously.
-: eh, i didnt notice you leh.
me: oh, really? *shrugs*
i think that pretty much sums it all up doesnt it? well if it doesnt. too bad. oh well. i decided not to study at potong pasir and so, i went home alone again via mrt. loll. there, i saw many more things that made me even more miserable. it seemed like i was the only person in the station who was alone. seriously. walked around the platform abit. it was then at dhoby gaut mrt that i realised why i was so stone in archery and nearly everywhere else, just as the train arrived at the station.

it was then, that i met her. i couldnt quite catch her name. but she seemed really nice. never met her before. dont know why, she just came and started talking to me. i sat down at the nearest seat while she just stood in front of me. funny thing was that nobody else didnt seem to notice her. and i was just communicating with her by some wierd means. i wasnt moving my mouth much at all. but it seemed like we were having a really great convo. i was the one mostly talking. and she just listened, very cheerful, saying some things here and there that really made a lot of sense. but she didnt say much about herself. i dont know. i felt quite comforted. heh. i just told her a hell lot about myself. i poured out everything. my troubles, my problems. heck, i even told her about my ct study plan. hah.

so we were talking and talking. i was feeling kinda tired after a very productive training where ken actually said my shooting was okay. then, i slipped off into slumber.i couldnt help it, it wasnt intentional. i slept for quite awhile. then, i felt someone patting my shoulder. i opened my eyes and saw this policeman. -where are you going?-
first reaction. i jerked forward in a funny way causing my bow and arrow tube to fall forward. then, i noticed, he was a friend of mine who was currently doing ns.
me: going home larh. had training.
-: since when you move house?
me: huh? i still live in yishun what.
-: look at what stop you're at.

shit. i just arrived chua chu kang! tempted to go out and play xbox. but knowing my mum would kill me, i quickly got off the station. then, i remembered something. i turned around just as i alighted the train. my newfound friend wasnt there anymore. crap. i didnt even know her name.

damn i miss the good old days. the nostaligia. all the great friends you could talk to or go out with. these days, its just so different. hardly see the old ones anymore. cant find many new ones who i can talk rubbish with or just talk to when necessary. those that i do find, dont seem to have the time to do it. heck, there are those who dont even want to. argh.

rainy days.

damn. its been raining really heavily for the past few days. thanks to that, training got cancelled yesterday. and when did i get the sms? only after i reached the range. lol. blooody kaptain. sumore my bow locked up in the store couldnt even get it out to train since ken oso not around. there were like only 5 people at the range and it wasnt even raining! argh. so went to study with annalyn at potong pasir macs. got damn pumped up after reading some bio stuff and even stayed there long after her mum came and fetched her. loll. wonder what happened to ken and his cake. haha.

didnt feel like going home so i went city hall and well, slacked around. alone. felt abit stupid. but nevermind, had some fun going around doing things here and there. then went home. after being damn pumped up, decided to go all out and finish bio instead of differentiation. then, planned to finish chem this morning. which i did! haha. what can i say? listening to three version of my favourite song did keep me going. haha. all through the night. then i stopped to watch saudi arabia kena trash by ukraine. damn. was hoping they'd qualify somehow. haha. two subjects down. amazing feat. surpassing even the completion of half life 2 yesterday! omg omg. the ending was absolutely amazing yet confusing. shall have to play episode 1 next. after cts. heh. i guess i shall buy an original copy of my own since it was such a rocking game!

yea. damn cold at my home now. raining since morning. about 5 days still school reopens. pity i cant like enjoy like mad cos of bloody cts. training better not get cancelled again. bloody kaswin. grrr.

days.

whoa. watched a really awsome episode of megas xlr yesterday night. if jamie and kiva can get together, anything is possible. haha. they're like complete opposites and they got together in a really sweet way. that gives me a lot of sneaky ideas. hehee. nevermind. i love that show. lol.

been pretty busy the whole weekend. got training tomorrow and wed which means less time for studying. that means i have to cut down on time for com. damn. at least i'm on the final chapter of half life 2. -dark energy- wooooo. i can do that on tuesday. haha. after that, there's only rise of legends which i'll probably continue after cts. hmm. spotted something at cyberactive today which i might get for a friend. hopefully his com can take it. it will be a pleasant surprise. loll. wonder what happened to the peeps who took part in nus open. hope they did well. heh. sorry folks for not being able to come down and support.

brazil better reward me with an exciting match for staying up and watching today. and by the looks of it, argentina will go really really far. but still, go germany! haha. i think we'll miss the quarter finals cos of bloody cts. i hate them.
oh yea, before i forget. kinwai, cut it out with the sarcasm. i bet your life is much more interesting and exciting than mine. pity bad boys outing also got postponed again. indra is sick and you cant make it. grrr. and cyrus? who cares. haha.

torrents.

today has the word bad written all over it. at least for me. while england fans on the other side of the world were celebrating thier team's qualification into the second round, i woke up sweating after a rather grisly dream at around 5:30 am. decided to go for a run an hour later after my mum gave me a list of stuff to buy from any supermarket. well, being damn pumped up, i jogged all the way to a shop n save pretty far away. then, i saw lightning and rain clouds. shit. i started to sprint all the way home so that i wouldnt get caught in the rain (mind you, i was carrying a few bags of rather heavy stuff). running up the stairs to my block, i bumped (more like collided) into an auntie living on the same floor as me. lol. she gave me a rather wierd look. i reached home utterly dead and just on time cos it almost immediately started to rain.

after slacking for awhile, i went to my room to do bio. guess what, my bio notes were all getting soaked since i didnt close the windows and the wind was blowing a hell lot of rainwater onto my table. shit again. ohwell, decided to leave my bio to dry while i did chem. leaned back on my chair. wham. somehow, it fell back and i hit my head on the floor. ouch. shit yet again.

then, after some mugging, i went into the kitchen. wham again. i collided with my mum, carrying a cup of hot tea. shitshitshit. very pain. seriously. and after a whole day of such accidents (like at least four others), i feel really stupid.

kind of miss some people now. in particular two people. doesnt make things better when people start to dao me. haha. some unintentionally, and others, well, who knows? final stretch of the hols. maybe i might see some of them. watching argentina match now. already one goal in 5 mins. hah. probably will watch megas xlr later after the match. have a long day tomorrow. hopefully it wont turn out as unlucky as today. bleah.

camp

well. i'm back and fully normal and healthy from camp. i must say, it was a hell lot better than i expected. even though the program was simple, and mostly training, it was fun. new friendships were made and old ones were strengthened. there was time for reflection. oh yes, and the 15 hours of training? did do a lot for my form and shooting. besides, so coincidental that the world cup was during camp. haha. went down to watch matches in the middle of the night. i think that really made the camp even more fun. haha.

soccer and games fest were damn fun. played the most fun and exciting game of captains ball in my life. and i did score quite a few in both. rather funny since there were so few girls we had to evenly divide them into 4 teams? heheh. and fang kang the man really showed off his skills both in shooting (being the star shooter of our team event) and in soccer and captain's ball. hah. played until i was soaked (literally). btw, the australia-japan match was damn pro. pity the rest stayed behind to watch black hawk down? loll.

the guys being damn pumped up, created the "x-men" after kaswin downloaded 600 over mb of p*** (you make a guess) thinking it was x-men 3. damn sick. i became colossus and then nightcrawler after displaying my skill for moving around unnoticed. even fk was damn pumped up. constantly shaking his shoulders. good thing the scouts came too. they did a damn lot of funny stuff. like sirui and ongnardo suddenly doing the scouts dance at 2 am on the second day. and jinglin was damn "manly." seriously. dominating over all guys who dared to piss her off. until marcus came with the crushed snail under his shoe. but she did use it as a weapon on fk after he suggested to kaswin to turn off the lights in the girls toilet while it was in use.

could hardly sleep in the 2 nights. though one was voluntary. hah. cant believe slept for about an hour (according to marcus) at pastaman while everyone else was having dinner. haha. went wandering around school at night. rjc is so nice at night. especially level 5 which has a place which looks ripped off from nova prospekt in half life 2. hah. and the open space and roof where i can just lie down and look at the full moon. pity it rained. i saw the lightning from the top. if not i wouldve slept there for awhile at least. haha.

and yes. thanks to those people who showed thier concern in some way though it wasnt really necessary. and i was pleasantly surprised and touched and some of the things that happened during camp. all in all, it was realy great, even though i was quite stone. and as annalyn put it, i'm having a "camp hangover," right now. really miss it and looking forward to the outing and the chalet at the end of the year. good job exco for putting the camp together and thanks for holding one. haha.

now, back to the usual routine. study, play com, watch tv and train. lol

three days

crap. camp tomorrow and it better be good if not heads will roll. three days without half life 2!! omgomgomg. i just want to complete it. and three days without megas xlr and TT. and of course, the routine studying. i must say, i'm feeling abit proud of myself. i actually accomplished what i planned to do over the weekend. 4 topics for maths. hah. slacker no more! ahh. but i did lose my dotters hard copy card. heh. shall hunt for it high and low. lol. hopefully i can find it before she gets mad or something. but i feel neglected. lol.

ohwell. in case anything happens to me during camp (hopefully not), like get shot by arrows or something or get bashed up by koach and his chairs and stools (he has been very violent lately. not my fault though. i've been really good. xp), i shall miss my com alot. really realli alot. esp since i've got 2 games i have yet to complete. hah. shouldn't get too obsessed. life is more then just your com. well. hopefully i cant see a bunch of happy people at camp tomorrow. been hearing all sorts of things. dissent and the like. loll.

hmm. i was supposed to do something. oh yea, pack my bag for camp. ahh. it can wait. maybe i'll just do it tomorrow before i leave. haha.

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stayed up to watch the opening match for world cup. i must say, it was well worth it. an electrifying game. hah. suddenly felt like bad boys outing 2 and play 2v2 xbox soccer after the first one was ruined by a pot of lard(his identity will be protected for his own safety). go germany. win the world cup. hahaha.

anyways, an intense day of studying. actually, the most intense since holidays started. covered quite a bit of math. that was the only thing that stopped me from playing xbox with my brothers today. haiz. half the hols are over. i guess i should be halfway through my studying but i am not. ): wonder if i can bring bio notes for camp next week. haha. maybe if i cant sleep ill go and mug bio. lol. besides, i must find time for rise of legends and half life 2. okay, i know i'm damn noob larh, playing it only after 1.5 years since it was released. but i never really was interested until now. its like OMG, so damn f-ing nice. haha. i must have my daily at least 3 hrs a day if not ill go nuts. no wonder my studies is behind time. loll. wonder how i'm going to cope during camp. argh.

anyways, gotta catch the england match later to see how they fare. haha. and i just found another cool show to watch. megas xlr. damn farnie. i shall record all 26 episodes! muahahaha. TT still rocks as always. xp

weakness.

i shiver too much. maybe its cause it was too cold in the theatre while i was watching the omen and xmen3. maybe its cause im too weak when i draw my bow in trainings. or maybe its cause im too bloody shy. bleah.

paradox.

sometimes things get a wee bit contradictory. you want to be alone and get away from it all and yet you really want somebody to talk to. that combination doesnt quite fit. eh. yea, it doesnt. ): besides its starting to get really annoying when people keep harping on your little "flaws" (if you would call them that) and spreading it to the whole world thinking its damn retarted. well guess what, i dont care! hah. (maybe a little bit. lol) but still, its very annoying. everybody's got thier preferences. you might not like them or think its wierd, but thats not up to you is it? (dont even get me started on your strange habits. xp)

im probably just a wierd person who does strange things in the eyes on quite a few people. and you something? i dont care and wont change myself just because someone thinks its wierd. hah.

pah. as im typing this, i hear the sounds of yet another conflict raging. bleah. so screwed up, but heck, i have to live with it. better sleep early tonight so that i wont be late for tomorrow's movie "marathon" outing. ooh. thank you dotter for being so nice. sorry about that very long shakespeare thingy. haha.

flight

wish i had wings. then i could fly away to some peaceful place. away from all the trouble. heck, since i dont have any, these artificed wings might do the trick. pity they're not real though and just a figment of imagination. ):

rant.

err. it seems that ken is actually following the advice on annalyn's card. i just realised it. cause he threw a stool at me while i was shooting. ouch. luckily, i didnt let go of the string and let fly the arrow in any direction. i did manage to lower it. but ouch. ended up shooting a 6 for that arrow after an entire end of 9s. omg. whee, hope the windbreaker design is nice though. if not, i'll never forgive kaswin. dono why, but yea.

oops. forgot all about the ics concert tonight. should have gone and supported at least. ): even ben lim is there. lol. ah well, ill help out more for the next event. im not sure if i am a member but who cares. but i wonder if having 3 cca is allowed. i could have solved the whole problem by quitting RAFFLES CHAPTER but indra somehow talked me into staying. dang. why do i always fall for his persuasion. maybe i'll get my first aid cert and then quit. hehe. or maybe ill just stay. lol. but i hate the duties and i am sick of organising cip. haiz.

bugger. i spent a hell lot of sms today trying to converse with my "telepathic" twins. i guess they gave up cause i didnt get any replies. still wish i knew what they were up to. hell, it did give me a lot of laughs. my sis was wondering why i was grinning like a retard the whole afternoon?

destiny.

its a bit pissing when you dont perform when it matters. had training yesterday and bloody hell, i was on fire. in contrast to sunday when i was totally blown out. maybe i was too focussed on the score rather than relaxing myself. at least the koach's tips are working. hah. watchout you njc buggers. i wont be so screwed up in july! muahahaha. oops. i forgot all about writing my reflections. hope nobody's going to kill me or something. loll.

ohwell, four days into the hols and i am bloody bored already. the thing i miss the most is hanging out with friends and talking to them. msn doesnt quite make up for it. and worse thing is, i cant really call up my friends for a long chat cause of bungling parents. ): on both sides that is. argh. i should get out more. hah. got movie marathon with some archery buddies on the 6th. 4 movies i think, including some satanic horror-ish movie. and i think there's a campfire on the 7th? i wish somebody would give me more details on that. and yes, i have to go to citylink. i wonder if somebody would care to follow me or something. i have some shopping to do. lol. and i think its about time the brothers gather together for something, like xbox at lot 1? well, until then, i guess i have to work around completing three rather enchanting com games i recently "acquired".

anyways, watched hyperspace with sam neil on discovery channel yest night at 12 midnight.it was really mind boggling. they were apparently talking about the future of mankind when Earth no longer is hospitable to life (cos the Sun is getting hotter and is going to enlarge and explode in a few billion years?). but it was intriguing, the many possible ways how mankind was going to reach the stars and it stirred a train of thought that stretched until 2 am when i finally decided to sleep.

oh yea, really sorry guys for not coming to school at 8:45. i kinda overslept. hee. and happy birthday KK!